Amari's Log
My diary entries from all throughout 2025. I still have a lot to fill!
2025年1月7日
Yawwwwn... It's really been a little while, hm? I really hope everyone has had a wonderful holiday season, I know I did! The last time I wrote in here was right before my birthday, so I'm actually 17 now also :D It was great having a friend over for my birthday, we baked my cake together and just hung out the whole day XD I finally own a copy of Yotsubato also! I've been reading it since I was around eight so I'm really happy I finally own a copy after all these years, same with my new copy of LittleBigPlanet 2! All in all I had a nice break, but coming back to school plus the fact it's already 2025 makes me a bit nervous because time is going so fast (but then again, I'm always worrying over something ^^; At least the beginning of the semester is kind of relaxed, but as it goes on I'll keep working harder since we have the ACTs in April ;-; No use complaining about it right now I suppose, so for the time being, I guess I'll edit my site some more. Bye for now!!
2025年2月6日
I guess Valentine's Day is already coming up soon, hm? I thought this year I wanted to mix things up and make candy for my friends, I'm excited to see if I can find any cute molds or even flavored chocolate! I've actually been talking to some of my Japanese friends about it, I really want to try and make giri-choco (my only choice since I'm not ready for love ^^;). I'm wondering on what to actually hand out though... in the supermarket near me I did find matcha powder once, so maybe I could try to make matcha chocolate? Maybe I just like sweets too much, but I'm really excited about trying confectionary! I only really bake most of the time, but maybe if I have enough money I could try to do petit-fours as well? I think I'm a little too into this, especially since they're just platonic chocolates ^^; The truth is around Valentine's Day I feel a bit upset, but that's mostly because I don't really have anyone in my life (yet?) to celebrate it with. I don't know...is it weird for me to not be into romance at this age? I just think its really scary, but I feel like I'm missing something seeing others in love... Is that normal? I don't know what else to talk about right now, so I'm sorry my journal entries are few and far in between... Take care!
2025年2月26日
Hello again, how are you? Like always, school has been really busy... I barely have enough time to play games because I've been feeling extra tired lately. On some days I even sleep for twelve hours ;; Why must school be so busy? I feel like it's becoming harder to keep up as time goes on, but that's probably just me being lazy ^^; In other news I feel like I did alright on a recent algebra test, but I'm still worried I didn't because we never got our results back; I know I shouldn't think like that, but I don't know, it's hard not to worry about that sort of thing especially when you struggle in that subject, right? I'm really not good with numbers I don't think, math gets really complicated and I'm too much of a peabrain to understand :] In other news, I can't believe it's already going to be March... time really moves too fast for me to keep up, I guess that's why I say I feel older than 17, but younger at the same time ;; Maybe I'll end this entry here; I'm actually writing this quite late at night, so good night!
2025年3月25日
I'm back at school! Sorry I don't write in here much, I tend to forget when I'm off for breaks because playing Project Diva is more important than keeping up with my log ^^; But then again I'm never really doing anything except studying and sleeping or drawing... I am a bit sad actually, since a gacha game I was fond of got shut down recently ;; It's always sad to see something you like end so early, right? To be honest though I never really played Tale of Food outside of when it launched in 2023 or a few times here and there, but I'll still cherish the time I spent with my food souls (especially Dumpling ;-;) Oh well, I at least still have another food based gacha game to hold me over this sadness (Food Fantasy), I've actually been playing it since it's English server launched as well (2018; returned in 2020)! I honestly really love characters that are based on concepts like foods or animals, so maybe that explains why I love these types of games? I just really like gijinkas XD Speaking of that, maybe I should try to make my own sometime? I've started a new sketchbook recently so maybe I should have a page dedicated to food gijinkas, like my autumn themed magical girls I drew for Halloween! In fact maybe I should make that a seasonal thing... I could have sakuramochi and hanami dango as characters this time around? I guess I'm talking randomly at this point, so I'll end my springtime entry here ^^; Thank you!
2025年5月04日
It's already the end of the school year... I'm so nervous for the future ;; I can't believe I'm already going to be a high school senior... I never thought I would make it this far, if I'm being honest! I don't mean that in a sad or depressed way either, I just mean it sounded so far off when I was younger, I can't believe I'm turning 18 this year either. It's so nerve-wracking... especially all of the work I have to do to finish this year. Currently, my grades aren't the best, so I've been working really hard to get them up to passing before the 22nd. I would die if I had to do summer school! Other than being stressed over school and my grades, it's been really lonely on my games and other social things... most of my Japanese friends are away for Golden Week so I haven't been able to play with them ^^; I mentioned that last year too I think? It gets really lonely, so I usually take some time to do work until Golden Week is over and we can play again. I've also recently gotten over a sickness, so this week has been pretty slow outside of homework, I did have the chance to make a chiffon cake though... I'll share it tomorrow with my friends as compensation for being gone all week ^^; I don't know what else to write, so I'll end my entry now... Thank you for reading!
2025年5月30日
Hello summer! I'm so happy it's finally summer vacation, even if it means I'm only a few months away from my senior year. Good news though, I passed my junior year (barely ^^;)! I guess I should congratulate myself for passing, but It doesn't really feel all that special, most if not all people can do that easily I suppose... but I digress, I'm still a bit glad I can now relax over these next few months. I actually went to an arcade recently with a friend! It was nice visiting one after a really long time, I got to play some of my favorite games with her and we even won some prizes from the crane machines. I can't believe I managed to win a Hatsune Miku figure! It ended up being a module I really like too (Gaikotsu Gakudan to Riria's Etoile), and it looked really cute next to what I won for my friend (A shark plush that looks like an ice cream bar!) I'm hoping over the summer we can hang out more and have sleepovers along with another friend; I'm really grateful I met such amazing people throughout the year...Thank you so much!!
2025年7月01日
Long time no see! I've been quite busy over the summer, I can't believe it's already half over! I've spent a lot of time chatting with my friends on my phone, every day in fact ^^ I even got to spend the night with my two closest friends! It was really exciting since it was my first ever sleep-over with anyone other than my family, but I was also really nervous about it because of that. I was really happy I got to play Jet Set Radio Future for the first time with them also, since we've been talking about the game for so long but they never got to play it. They really liked it! Let's see... what else have I been up to? I've mostly just been laying in bed, but I'm hoping I can get the courage to start a job soon. I've been too nervous to actually get once since I've become of age, but for the rest of the summer I really hope I can get one before school starts again. I'm also going on a beach trip soon to close off the summer! It's great that my family has kept our beach trip tradition for years, we usually end the summer by visiting California and going school shopping. I'm pretty excited! I guess I don't really have anything to say for now, so I'll stop writing. Thank you!
2025年8月01日 This entry can be distressing for some. Take care when reading!
School's finally started again, I'm so nervous honestly. Now that it's finally my last year of school, I don't know... I really feel like the weight of the world is coming down on me now that I'll be an adult soon. Is that normal? I kind of feel sick knowing that my childhood is ending, ending before I'm ready for it to. I hate this feeling so much. I don't feel like I'm ready for anything at all; I'm not ready to be eighteen, become an adult, drive, get a job, graduate, but at the same time I feel even more left behind by my peers who can grow up. It's to the point where I cry before I fall asleep at night because I'm so scared of what's to come. I really wonder if this feeling's normal...or if I'm overreacting about life and everything. I guess I'll stop writing before this gets too depressing, I'm sorry ^^;
2025年8月18日
A bit belated, but happy two years to Amari-ga-shin-da's revise! I can't believe it's already been two years already, let alone almost four since the creation of it. I'm so happy to see just how much my website has changed in such a short amount of time, from my barely html website in early 2022, to my sweet and sugary home now. I'm surprised at how much more I've learned while coding! Thank you everyone for visiting and for all of the kind messages left for me, there isn't a day that goes by where I don't read them or visit other's websites! With that being said, I hope that somewhere I've also inspired someone to start their own website. Here's to two years of the real Amari-ga-shin-da, and many more!!
2025年9月23日
It's already fall! I'm honestly really shocked at how fast the year is going by, it feels just like yesterday I was wishing for it to be summertime XD I'm hoping this year I'm able to visit a Halloween event or some such, I've actually been invited to sleep over on Halloween by my friend! I've been thinking about what costumes I could wear this year, maybe I'll dress as Mae Borowski from Night in the Woods? I'm actually a huge fan of that game :0 I remember hearing about it not even a year after it came out, and I've been in love ever since ^^ I wonder if anyone here also likes that game ^^ Other than that I haven't really been up to anything in particuler, although as I'm wiritng this I feel really weak and tired ;; I should've probably eaten something before walking to school... but I usually never feel like this so it's probably because I haven't been getting much sleep... Actually, it's finally the rainy season so it's probably because most nights are filled with the sound of torrential rain ;;
2025年10月21日
It's already almost Halloween! I'm really excited for this year's events if I'm being honest since I'll be staying the nignt at a friend's house, and we were planning on staying up to watch movies and play on my Xbox 360. I've been playing on it a lot recently, I even bought some new games for it about a month ago (Sam and Max). Speaking of recent, I got back into Sam and Max again! I've actually known about it since the first remaster in late 2020-early 2021 and even played a little bit of Save the World back then, but around the end of August I ended up watching a ton of clips and episodes of the games and show, and ended up getting obsessed ^^; It's to the point that I've had the TV Tropes (I frequent it!} page open for almost a month, and I'm going as Sam for Halloween ^^; I don't know what it is about Sam and Max that made me get back into it honestly, I think something just clicked as I started to understand the characters and humor more while watching the show, plus Max is super cute (and fun to draw XD). I wonder if it's surprising I'd be into something like this since it's super western ^^ But I guess it would've been inevitable because I love rabbits XD I've realized Max and Amari are also really similar, so maybe I'll draw them together for fun someday :] I wonder if anyone else here has read Sam and Max... Let me know!
